& everyone needs *<3

2011-11-01T16:08:00.015+08:00

http://www.anythinglefthanded.co.uk/index.html

This shop is like super cool! I bet noone noticed that the normal scissors is actually designed for right handers, including mee. Right handers actually cn see better where's the scissors going when they cut. Lol, no wonder i alwaes cannot cut straight lines. A pity singapore doesnt hav shops like that haha. I tink tat's lik, the onli shop for specially left handers in the world.

2011-09-27T19:26:00.001+08:00

This is probably better. For me, for you, for us.

The guilt is killing me.

2011-08-27T22:33:00.001+08:00

have been a fool.

2011-08-07T15:47:00.001+08:00

Exhausted.
didnt know relationships can be this draining.
Decisions to make.

You were concealing anger.
Yesterday's conversation left me with a renewed optimism about love. That this time, perhaps i could truly love. All this while, i haven't been on the giving side mostly. But, i still don't have enough faith in myself.

A different perception could change things, or not at all.

No matter what happens next, what decision you or i make, one thing i believe in is: at the end of the day, what's yours will eventually be yours.

2011-04-30T23:47:00.001+08:00

i wanna make a kite, but im so lazy :/

2011-04-22T16:01:00.001+08:00

2011-04-20T23:54:00.011+08:00

Happy birthday ys!! hope you enjoyed today :)

2011-04-18T00:38:00.001+08:00

she said it'd mean alot to you.
turns out not to b.
thr n then i knew i lost you.

2011-04-15T22:32:00.003+08:00

so i got 2 of my wisdom teeth plucked today. thr's lik a total of 6 or 7 injections, and each about 8cm long?! omggg right. after the first injection, i thot kay the injection's part done but hu knew he'd inject another n another n another etc. one!! LOL. the whole operation was fucking disgusting!!!!! constant drilling and cn even feel+hear the pulling out of the teeth from its roots.

mr dentist said i nid 2 pluck out the remaining 2 wisdom teeth too, it's onli a matter of time.

faints, seriously, to hav to go thru dis again.

strange how throughout the op wat went thru my mind most of the time was ok jus hav to get dis done n over wif n den i can start on my bike lessons. tat was lik my motivation, wich was y i din shed a single tear? :] hehe.

the pain has yet to come! numbness still wearing off...

2011-04-10T22:14:00.001+08:00

http://just-littlethings.tumblr.com/

I tink dis blog is so damn cool!!!
but so disagree wif 306.

2011-04-03T22:38:00.002+08:00

nice song^^.

I can be tough

I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all

Theres a girl who gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it

And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

[bridge]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Oh, Oh,

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Let go, Let go...

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

2011-03-26T18:50:00.001+08:00

A+ for my internship :) yippee! miss those internship days.

jurong bird park on thurs, the flamingoes and pink parrots r the prettiest birds! swans jus so elegant leh. the parrots were damn noisy, the king penguins had this blur look the whole tym during the feeding session it makes me laff. lol they kept turning their heads left and right wif this gong face when staring at the birds flying around. and this solemn looking greyish bird wif a huge beak scared the heck out of me. we were talking about how it's like a statue cos it doesnt move when suddenly it turned n looked at us! HAHA i screamed n ran away.

had ikea meatballs for the first time yesterday. nice but kinda makes me feel guilty eating beef.. :/ tink dis shall be the first and last time i eat it. it was fun walking ard wif yingshan n jinyee! :] lik damn long nv see dem alr.

*
I thought I was already ok.
What was not meant to be will never be meant to be.

2011-03-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

hw to be happy? hw am i even going to stay sane.

2011-03-15T22:48:00.007+08:00

To him:

Jus watched Gnomeo & Juliet and the show made me cry. It reminded me of what you once said "love always wins like in movies." I guess I didn't know how to love you.

I'm sorry for all the hurt you are feeling now.

I was the one who brought your hopes back up and affirmed you that this was what I want, but I was also the one who gave it up. Amidst everything, the initial confidence I had had disappeared. I realized I wasn't able to bring myself to trust you totally, to trust you to the point of blocking out everything they were telling me. I had let doubt take over my thoughts. But, I didn't tell you these feelings, and until now I don't know why. Perhaps I hadn't been able to muster the courage to and was afraid of your answers.

So I kept these feelings inside until I don't know how to look at this relationship anymore. I didn't know how to face it. I didn't know what to believe, what to not believe.

I am really sorry for everything. I don't deserve you at all.

Just thought that I should let you know..

Please be alright.

2011-01-21T00:48:00.002+08:00

words tat i forbid myself 2 say.

2011-01-18T23:47:00.002+08:00

You are breaking my heart.

2011-01-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

actually, im nt tat strong.
the tings tat i seem lik i can take, smtimes i cant.
i jus act lik i can.

nvm tat it's killing me, as long as there's peace.

2011-01-11T23:18:00.015+08:00

"It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful, it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, it's so beautiful, it's so beautiful
This moment is perfect, please don't go away"

-Innoncence; Avril Lavigne

2011-01-08T23:55:00.001+08:00

i tink im the stupidest person on earth.
y did i let myself b so vulnerable and allow myself to b treated liddat?
and it's lik there can b happiness but im nt going for it cos i noe there'd b objections.
im neglecting my heart for the sake of others' happiness, and for peace.
but it hurts.

2011-01-01T18:10:00.000+08:00

y wont u jus let me off.
to hear dose words frm ur own mother hurts lik hell.

2011-01-01T17:13:00.006+08:00

haha last wk has been v happening! went out aft work almost everyday. and for the first tym, i truly experience the horror of last min christmas shopping, thanks to the amt of gifts me and kelvin received frm ppl frm the pricing unit. it was alr thursday when we decided 2 gv dem bac xmas gifts, cos up until thurs we were still receiving gifts frm dem, take until paiseh :/

however, some gifts frm the pricing unit ppl are TOTALLY INSINCERE. as in, i tink i received earpiece tat's nt new cos the packaging box alr gt tear. and thoughtless gifts like a dice, some plain keychain, dis pouch wif indian cloth-like patterned design (not being racist here) and dis really ugly bright red and pink weird looking......monster keychain? gv dis kind of gifts might as well dun give. kelvin gt dis pouch wif clouds design-.- i mean, i dun expect anyting frm them, but since they wanna give, at least give something decent. it feels that they are only giving us cos they are scared tat as interns, we will feel left out if they dont, cos they gave the perm staff other gifts, but yet nt realli caring abt the gift they are giving us itself. i'd appreciate even if it's something small, as long as thot is put into it.

had a total of 3 christmas gift exchanges in the office. one among interns, one among our unit, one among pricing unit. hectic. i love the xmas trees and decorations put up in the office, brightens up the whole place and makes the ppl mre...cheerful?

last thurs was sis' bday :D

went to watch Gulliver's Travels before celebrating at home. mad rush frm work to GV end up still 1hr late cos of several reasons tat i dun even wanna mention. so totally dun get the show.

oreo cheescake!

present frm me to her!

oook, so i take bac my words abt singapore being so err wat word did i use tat tym? cos dey actually sell it here! found it at ANBNC at Bugis Junction n i tink taka sells it too. hahaha sis was damn happy :)))) but guess wats the price? 16.90! gosh right. i asked gavin to guess the price and he said $1-.- LOL.

speaking of which, the guys came over to play games, watch tv, and countdown ytd. basically i jus stayed hm while dey went play basketball when it was nearing midnight.

before tat had secret recipe's cakes at Marina Square aft work wif johan. nt nice leh.

even tho it's expensive, i wanna try nydc and bakerzin sometime! :)

xmas celebrations....

surprised my family wif dis log cakeee :]

from RoyalCakes. quite delicious! mum gave us all xmas presents lol one of wich is monopoly deal. and so begins mani mani rounds of monopoly deal...

very addictive.

so, hello 2011. i sincerely hope tat you'll be better than 2010 :)

2010-12-31T00:25:00.003+08:00

i wonder how u can gv so much love. That, amazes me alot. few ppl nowadays are liddat.
Much as i try, i cant.
i'd alwaes end up caught in the negativity of tings, doubt and remove my trust towards ppl easily, and whats more, over small matters.

2010-12-30T23:54:00.002+08:00

i tink i lost a little, no, more than a little, of myself along the way. yearning onli brings heartbreak cos no way tym will turn back. miss sec sch so much.

2010-12-29T00:13:00.002+08:00

no wonder you acted that way.

2010-12-29T00:10:00.001+08:00

I tink i nid this one person in my life who believes me when i dont believe in myself, and who will keep trying until he makes me believe in myself. Someone who will always be jus right beside me in case i nid him. Someone who can put up wif my attitude. And still dun see me as a weakling, loser, or secretly look dwn on me inside. I know at times i appear nonchalant and also sometimes say insensitive tings/jokes or try to cover up my feelings. But tat doesnt mean i dun care nor does it indicate tat i care less than before. Sometimes i lik to block tings out becos they are overwhelming me, other times, i guess they were attempts to lighten up the mood.

I tink every heart needs love.

2010-12-19T18:58:00.001+08:00

And it's all in the mind. Im already free, but yet i still feel tat im nt because i simply wun let myself free.
for awhile, tings were better. but it went bac to the same again.

Taylor Swift - Mine

2010-12-18T15:47:00.001+08:00

ranpunzel isnt nice at all!!! plot is so disappointing haha, tat i tink i forgt to appreciate during the movie all the effort gone into making her hair perfect :/

jus chanced upon dis mv a few days ago, and it's the first mv tat touched my heart after living 18 years of life:

VERSE 1:

Ohh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Ohh, oh, oh, oh, oh

You were in college working part time waiting tables
Left a small town, never looked back
I was the flight risk with the fear of fallin'
Wonderin' why we bothered with love if it never lasts

I say "Can you believe it?"
As we're lying on the couch
The moment I can see it
Yes, yes I can see it now

CHORUS:
Do you remember when we're sittin' there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
VERSE 2:
Flash forward and we're taking on the world together
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes

But we've got bills to pay,
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take yes, yes
This is what I thought about

CHORUS:
Do you remember when we're sitting there by the water?
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Do you remember all the city lights on the water
You saw me start to believe for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Oho oho oho

VERSE 3:
And I remember that fight 2:30 AM
And everything was slippin' right out of my hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street
Braced myself for the goodbye
Cause that's all I've ever known
And you took me by surprise
You said I'll never leave you alone
You said...
CHORUS:
I remember how we felt sittin' by the water
And every time I look at you it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
She is the best thing that's ever been mine

Hold on
Make it last
Hold on
Never turn back
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine
Hold on

Yeah, yeah do you believe it?

Hold on
We're gonna make it now.
Hold on
And I can see it yeah, yeah

And I can see it now, See it now, See it now

2010-12-18T00:58:00.001+08:00

I am telling myself, I need to stand firm to the ground. I need to practice wat i preach, and I need to have more faith/trust/patience. It's hard.
-
I got my positivity, from your energy.
now it's slipping away.
-
Im startled by how comfortable i feel in your presence.

2010-12-11T15:12:00.020+08:00

Closure.

reading all dose posts on your wall, i finally saw hw and why u'd never give her up for anyting else, possibly even someone better. cos wat you have is called true love.

i know this sounds cliche, but there isnt any better way to describe this. such a love is difficult to find. im sure u fought for wat you wanted before you got it, wich is why you treasure alot. all the memories go a long way back.

you've got my respect. in this messed up world, you still managed to stay true to yourself. different from the others.

I am going to stop harbouring any of those thoughts. I dont want to think of destroying your happiness. I dont even want to think of you in that way already.

you wun b reading this, but it doesnt matter.
and i secretly wish you here all the best in your life :)

2010-12-11T01:18:00.000+08:00

I wish i could SHOUTOUT to you, everyting and everyting abt you tats on my mind.
but i cant, there's no way.

2010-12-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

it is only now that i know that actually, i dont know anyting. i made up too mani assumptions n simply followed them. it's all my mind's fault for tinking so much. and trying too hard to change myself; still, it doesnt feel right. hoping here and there, being neither here nor there. That feeling sucks.

2010-12-04T12:32:00.005+08:00

Right here, right now,
in this period of my life,
im happy :)

2010-12-04T00:44:00.007+08:00

everyday, im searching for more meaning in my life. im looking at self improvement.(:

i wan 2 watch ranpuzel! i went ohmygosh when i read this:

Imagine the amount of effort put into jus HAIR. if i go watch the movie without knowing dis, i wouldnt appreciate it as much as hw i will now. haha. amazing huh. nv occured to me that animation requires so much work. but flynn totally looks lik tarzan!!! nt nice. anw i tink movies of fairytales wif a twist are cool. lik if there's snow white and the seven dwarfs, sleeping beauty, jack n the beanstalk, etc. sure damn nice. will definitely watch all of dem! haaha. feel lik digging up my fairytale storybooks to read :/ rmb hw enjoyble dose stories were when we were young? haha, grow up jus nv touch alr.

2010-11-30T00:53:00.000+08:00

it's sad how i cant even hav a simple proper chat wif whom i consider close to me.
when i was pushed 2 the extremes, and it was my limit alr,
u still persisted.
ignored the warning signs.
u jus had to win no matter wat.
there jus has to be unhappiness almost every single time.
why?

i dun understand at all.
maybi i shld jus stay away for now. i wan to avoid any unhappiness in my life as much as i can.

2010-11-27T11:20:00.010+08:00

once again, disgusted by everything.

i wonder wich working individual in this country is still real, and true to his own feelings and towards others.

is your face tat important? are you tat afraid of letting people see your mistakes or appearing stupid?

to me, what matters most is to be real. say the things you mean, laff off your mistakes and learn from them.

wats wrong with the world man.

2010-11-27T01:40:00.001+08:00

Some words are hard to say, cos you r afraid it will make tings awkward or change tings.

Some people are hard to find, so you prefer letting the memories stop at the beautiful ones lest other things ruin those memories.

Some people you know you wanna hold close to your heart, but you realli dont know how to.

Sometimes you gotta take a chance, but doubt overwhelms you.

2010-11-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

ive been kiping it in, trying to hold back, but all of these is driving me insane.
I hate the fakeness i hate seeing proud faces i hate the pretendence i hate being controlled.
i nid to breathe.

2010-11-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

i need alotalotalotalot more courage.
i looked to you as my role model for change. your life seems so fufilling and full of excitement n fun. you are alwaes real, you nv once bothered to entertain the people you dunlik. you are the one who taught me tat no one should settle down for less than wat they deserve.
now you r gone, i realize i begin to slowly lose the confidence i had gained jus by having you in my life during tat period of tym.
and i refuse to let memories be my onli guiding light.
jus when i thot life was gonna b different, it all disappeared.

2010-11-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

hav dis sudden urge to sing to manimani songs.

2010-11-18T23:26:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i wish there's a box, whereby i can take out all the deepest emotions in me, tats affecting my viewpoint & judgement of everyting else, frm my heart, and kip dem there, safely locked up inside, until the moment is right to take dem out.

2010-11-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

And im thinkin'
maybi i'd nv get there.
maybi it's jus a fantasy
tats way too out of reach.

i believe in miracles.
but maybi, dis tym round,
even my best efforts, even holding on to hope, even the random but constant memory flashbacks tat make me smile, even wishing at 11/11/10, 11.11am, wun work.

2010-11-13T23:55:00.004+08:00

and it's jus youyouyouyouyou everyday. please get out of my mind.

2010-11-12T00:12:00.001+08:00

maybe im chasing aft the wrong tings.

2010-11-11T00:10:00.002+08:00

now or never.

2010-11-08T21:51:00.001+08:00

take a deep breath, gonna take a leap at this.
cos if we dun try, we'll nv noe.
i hope disappointment doesnt come gulfing me down. :X

countdown.

2010-11-07T23:21:00.005+08:00

2010-11-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

2010-11-07T22:55:00.001+08:00

From now onwards, i wun allow myself to get sad/unhappy easily over tings and ppl hu r nt worth it.

those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind ~dr. seuss

2010-11-06T17:11:00.004+08:00

haha had a fun tym out shopping wif mum&sis ytd! hula & co. clothes rocks to the max, lik one small shop alr gt 5-6 pieces i lik. as compared to forever21 at 313, wif 4 stories high, onli gt 2 or 3 nice clothes. hw come everyone says forever21 gt nice clothes??? haha anw, the fdcourt is damn huggeee! nice place. i lik the chandliers alot. newlook's heels are o.o. way too high for me.

despite being realli busy n tired frm work, i still managed to squeeze time out to meet ppl :) . had a 3hrs long chat wif johan on tues, haha feels lik we cn talk forever. mus b too long nv meet alr. celebrated jinyee's bday at cafe cartel last wk, thanks for the treat man! haha almost went to timbre aft tat but din in the end cos it was almost 12 n the nxt day gt work. also met up wif hup a few days ago aft work for dinner & den met grace to get bac my sec sch books. received my long overdue present lol, last yr's. im worse, yet to pass her hers lol. going to diff places to hav lunch wif meimei n mummy on working days is love :)

now im left wif shoess to buy. n more formal wear.

2010-11-04T23:31:00.006+08:00

I wish i was a better speaker.
I wish i had more courage.

I wish they wouldnt judge me so easily.
I wish they accepted and respected me as an individual.
Isit my face or isit the image i potray?
Everyone's different, and you cant expect me to be the same as you all.
And everyone has their flaws, the onli ting is i choose to show them but you all hide them.
I dun see a reason to hide them, and maybi tat makes me appear vulnerable, but does tat mean tat i deserve the whole lot of lecturing, 'tsk-ing', and all the shit?
dont u hav your own flaws too?

it'll b different if it's purely concern, but we know it's nt.

I wish i could run to a far away place sometimes.
/I wish I could take you out of my mind and put you next to me.
I wish i will stop feeling so confused.

2010-10-31T23:46:00.000+08:00

1. learn rollerbalding
2. learn motorbike
3. rockclimbling
4. wildwildwet
5. bowling, pool
6. cupcakes
7. shop at 313 somerset F21, newlook
8. shop for shoes, formal wear

so mani tings i wanna do, but duno when im exactly going 2 find the tym 2 do dem :/

2010-10-30T15:23:00.003+08:00

Scrolled thru the long list hoping to see 2 ppl's names appear but i don't.

ohwell.

2010-10-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

I suddenly feel lik toking to you):

2010-10-24T00:05:00.001+08:00

awesomeawesome song!

2010-10-20T00:16:00.000+08:00

somehow, i tink u r realli the kind of person i tink u r.
hopefully.
nw hw mani tyms hav i used tat word since attachment started? simply too much 2 count, and each time it lets me dwn.

a heavy heart.
sorry if dis post doesnt make any sense:/

2010-10-17T15:14:00.002+08:00

attachment aint tat bad aftall :)))
tiring, but fun.

sometimes, it even feels lik an escape frm all my troubles.

ive learnt so many tings frm the people there.
no one should settle down for less than what they deserve.

2010-10-08T00:15:00.002+08:00

So confused, abt so mani tings.
Realized tat at work, if you dunhav the gift of the gab, you r at an disadvantage. and tat i kip trying, but nth seems to work.

I dont know how to get dem 2 understand hw i feel ):
every morning at work my heart will ))))))))))))))))): X1000, the face v stiff, wan to smile oso smile bu chu, practically forcing myself to learn all the shit, halfway when huever explaining 2 me i will get turned off by the tediousness of the work involved and dose small small steps tat dun mean anyting, and totally tune out. den aft tat when dey lemme try, first step i will alr ask "how to do ah?".

im looking for warmth, for assurance, for sth strong in the workplace to withstand watever tat's gonna come at me.

2010-10-02T18:21:00.004+08:00

I guess i dun hav the courage to live the kind of life i wan.

but there are ppl who have alwaes been there for me, and who believe in me.
to that, i jus want to say,
thank you so much. ♥

2010-09-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

Ok, so..i'll try to b positive abt everyting.
gah.

2010-09-20T23:35:00.004+08:00

my sis is the best listener everrrrrrr :)
can tell her everyting tat happened 2day in details n complain n say all my feelings and she din stop me once lol. <3

my job scope lik chiminology i scaredddddddddddddddd. supposed 2 take over all the job duties of an intern when he completes his attachment in dec. omg. and i see hw busy he is n mus communicate wif everyone, i jus D:

andand, i will wonder y the heck am i doing 6mths internship when i dun plan 2 work as a banker or anyting related 2 banking n finance in the future. lik meaningless u noe.

2010-09-12T01:12:00.001+08:00

jus watched 500 days of summer, sucked. and i had tat impression tat the show was damn nice!
but, it emphasized on hw we shld totally folo our feelings, and protrays ppl in love in a realistic way, nt lik sm fairytale stories.

2010-09-11T19:17:00.001+08:00

Displeasure and other tings in between

School's out, holiday's here but attachment's starting vv soon): been feeling rather.......angsty and having mood swings, idk y. lots of tings i wanna do, but jus too lazy to. and i shld stop tinking too much ugh dis is such a negative post :/.

2010-09-10T14:46:00.001+08:00

wonder.
too mani thots on my mind.........

2010-09-05T13:51:00.002+08:00

you are such a disappointment. those words stuck and i duno hw long dey r gonna stay wif me.

2010-08-15T18:31:00.005+08:00

hehe damn happieeeeeee dey restocked the handbag i wanted! ^^ X 100.
o.o bro jus came bac he bought dumbells.

ate at orchard hotel, the international buffet for lunch. gt stan chart credit card promo. but still kinda ex. marina mandarin hotel's international buffet tastes better, and gt wider variety of food.

thefaceshop's nail polish remover smells so good! gt the cranberry smell. wayyy better than the one i'd been using, wich is silkygirl's. it's lik a relief cos everytym use silkygirl's i will hold my breath while wiping off, very challenging lol. realli cannot stand the smell.

hmmmmmmmmm. life can be such a torture, when ppl r forcing u 2 do tings u realli dunlik doing.

2010-08-14T19:02:00.001+08:00

went for yog opening ceremony last full dress rehearsal on thurs, could b better. cos 1)i cld smell smoke almost thruout the entire show 2)mani of the stage performances gt no link to yog, dey could hav had performances related to sports lik cycling stunts, or acrobatics 3)nt enuff performances to wow the crowd 4) dey recycled the ndp heart torch n the giant walking puppets frm last yr wich is lik abit errrr.

but i liked the chapter wif the fire acts, and having performers spread out across the spectators stand performing tings tat complemented the stage performances was gooodddddd haha. lik bring the audience mre into the mood of the whole event. the stage lightning n set up quite nice. and, can see the huge amt of effort put in.

anw had tickets 2 tat rehearsal cos dear n bro r gonna perform wushu =) but aiya, their part gt the cat looking monster den the screen will onli show the story n nt the performers so it's realli a waste of their effort n time loh. the area whr dey r standing, wich is in the water, is so dark cant even see their faces i tink if dey anyhw do any actions oso nobody will noe. sad eh.

hahhaa but u noe, their costume is actually quite funny! lik power ranger. post the foto here nxt tym! aft i take it wif dear.

haha dis was the part whr dey announced the countries frm A-Z and it's really alotttttt so it gt boring n we started taking fotos of ourselves~

bright lights everywhr.

and finally, SINGAPORE!!!!! hahahaha. (-.-)

paper doves in the air

ok the end. haha!

dese r taken aft ndp..:) ran into papa, mummy, and sis aft the performance at tamp mac thr. dey went watch the fireworks. and sis was lik "take foto together take foto together!"

lol.

2010-08-14T00:37:00.001+08:00

whipped dis up for dear 2day! (wif mummy's help heh :p)

carbonara pasta,

but used dis type of pasta instead of fettuccine pasta.

the taste is........ok loh. LOL. first tym make ma haha.

but dear say he loves it cos is i make one! :D

i wanna make ha gao~

cant find camera so cant upload pics on yog oc performance..................

2010-08-12T22:11:00.001+08:00

NDP Part II-

notice the army tanks.......................

spot the three 'stars'

eyes damn cuiiiii.

i made dis myself!~ ^^

2010-08-12T19:47:00.000+08:00

NDP Part 1-

2010-08-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

walau, inception nt nice la. scare ppl onli :O

2010-08-09T22:44:00.002+08:00

Back frm ndp! update soonzxs (Y)

2010-08-09T00:32:00.002+08:00

World Issues: A Singapore Perspective module Reflection
one of my proudest "works" frm sch! :)

if it doesnt look lik it, i spent a long tym doing dis. haha. even tho design gt no marks HAHA. but i still felt lik doing sm art~

2010-08-08T00:06:00.004+08:00

had yuki yaki 2day at marina sq!

errrr the chicken soup nt nice n i couldnt find any rice the egg noodles nt nice oso so it wasnt v nice (lol) but the company was good :))) mum & sis. if u love clams, mussels, sea cucumbers, prawns, scallops den u'll love the place. but the scallops too salty. teriyaki chicken leg is fab. the rest of the food r jus normal steamboat food ba. overall still i tink wun go bac thr again, maybi for the ice cream buffet? anyone wans 2 go wif meeee haha.

hahaha sis is pretty retarded hor? lolol. she say she damn happy 2day :] aft eating, spent smtime at Times looking up astrology stuff n manicure/pedicure books while mummy look at other books haha. was really craving for sm sweet stuff so got blueberry chesscake on the way bac.

caught Despicable Me on thurs wif dear @ lido, i dunlik the movie. lunched at wisma. baked lemon & rosemarry potato wedges ytd~~~~ i put too much lemon juice alr else i tink nice. prefer the ones gt skin one. still craving for desserts! HAHA.

2010-08-06T21:30:00.003+08:00

is this wat u do when you get angry?
announce it to the world?

Ice cube trays

2010-08-06T18:26:00.004+08:00

ice straws

DAMN COOL RIGHT?! Singapore is so deprived hahah.

the ultimate:

tadaaaa!! isnt dis cool.

but anyway, wat i realli got me soo interested in the first place was:

saw it in Ikea's catalogue damn long ago, and took damn long to go get it oso. den SOLD OUT alr! ):

i wanted it so badly. plus, tat day actually quite hungry initially wanted 2 go bac hm for dinner after going Giant, but jus dragged bro over to find since at tat area. Ikea made me turn mani mani rounds before arriving at the kitchen section. and we searched for so long before locating the ice cube tray section, then DUNHAV DIS DESIGN ANYMRE!!!! v sad u noe.

and i had dinner at lik, 10 plus tat night cos of dis-.-

do you tink im lame? HAHA.

but i realli realli still wanna have this~

2010-08-05T22:35:00.000+08:00

napfa was damn embarrasing but worh it for tat "Attempted" to appear in my academic transcript :))

my mind is filled wif so mani thots feels lik it'll explode anytym.
because with the current circumstances, situation, i cant hav wat i wan 2 hav.

2010-08-03T17:12:00.001+08:00

I realize
there are so many tings i wanna say
to the ppl who've entered my life n left an imprint
those whom I was once veryvery close to, but we stopped toking cos of arguments etc.
the memories still remain.
after almost 2 and a half years of shitty poly life,
i guess ive learnt how i shld hav treasured you guys more.

i wanna clear all the misunderstandings, make clear my thoughts, frm the point where we stopped toking.
to diff ppl ive got diff tings to say.
but isit even possible?
it's been 2 years plus, or even 4 years for some.

but im vv afraid,
of something.

and,
becos of what ive seen in poly,
ive become dis crap,
someone who onli keeps taking,
ive almost forgotten how to give.
tat realli sucks.

also my self defence is way too high such tat i duno hw to be true to many anymore. how?

2010-08-02T15:41:00.012+08:00

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im finally FREE!!!!!!!
haha.
Freedom feels kinda weird, maybi cos it's bittersweet.
bcomm solution selling call gt A-, could hav gotten A if nt for my lateness-.-
i oso duno whether 2 believe him leh. :X
he is a super gl teacher. LOL. really leh.
anw getting A- is not good when almost everybody else is getting A- oso.
and mfs test is so screwed up. but nvm, byebye mfs! hahahahaha.
and, i onli slept 1hr ytd nite can u believe it cos i cannot believe it.

2010-07-23T14:21:00.001+08:00

I tink i overworked for the past few days such tat 2day finally can rest i jus kip feeling tired. slept frm 2+ to 11, go eat one piece of bread+lunch, den went online, fell asleep, went offline, slp again total slp 1hr. lol. AND IM STILL TIREDDDDD. the eyes lik dunwan open.

hahaha. but i gt 2 do my wisp reflection leh. anw so glad tat bcomm 3 interview is over :))! 2 nites ago before the interview interview qns jus spam my dreams. and still gt the solution selling call nxt wk. napfa is coming omgggggggggggggggg.

2010-07-18T14:39:00.010+08:00

just finished wealth management's movie reflection. the little boy is super duper cutee~ the movie's The pursuit of happyness. still ok la, i duno y i dun feel tat it's touching at all. maybi cos the whole movie was kinda set on a positive tone despite the circumstances. or maybi onli love stories can make me cry! haha.

still left wif tons of tings 2 do, & i haven gone on my getawayyyy.

2010-07-17T15:43:00.003+08:00

Im finally done wif my appreciating art final assignment aft 4 hrs! so damn tiring.
no mre AA lsns, no more AA assignments~

2010-07-13T14:59:00.002+08:00

cheerful song, great use of words :) each time i listen 2 it, will discover more about its meaning.

anw, world cup's over and guys r realli crazy over it. betted $5 on holland and $5 total 3 goals for the final match ): was pretty sure holland wld win hahs.

And i tink it's very funny to associate an octopus and a parrot wif world cup!! ok, maybi it's nt sth new, but i recently den noe gt such ting lol.

despo for a getaway.

2010-07-05T19:14:00.005+08:00

today is just angry for 101 reasons.

2010-07-04T12:32:00.000+08:00

心很乱。根本不知道你到底你爱不爱我.。i thot dis tym it would be diff. i believed it would be. but why do tings alwaes turn out lik tat?

2010-07-03T00:01:00.005+08:00

If I could, I would;
Live a life where all choices are made by just following my heart.

How wonderful that would be.

2010-06-21T18:20:00.002+08:00

Sleeping at 2, 3am is not good because it makes me feel giddy the nxt day. projects are lik a never ending cannot enjoy holidays properly. and the holidays are so so short!! oh, koka's prawns r nice :)

he got the Haagen Dazs shake while i gt the berry cool. it's too strong for my liking. dear din lik his either. :/ and he was lik angry half of the tym, spoil the moooood.

2010-06-20T19:21:00.008+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! <3 my papa, he's the funniest

person ive ever met. and the most patient/ZEN, aft me :)

present for him wif all our signatures on the paper bag.

Tuesday, went walkwalk ard tm. bought lilac nail polish lik finally. splurged tat day, got mummy a new wallet, is lik see nice den jus buy leh, bought mani other tings on impulse oso. haha i tink i too long nv go shopping alr. the sad ting is the handbag ive been wanting to get no more stock.

Thursday, had sakae sushi buffet wif bro at Changi Airport T2. we eat until so kang kor la, cos nt nice n nt hungry at all, but had to go eat 2 obtain receipt and help sis for her assignment. and mus eat until worth smmre. jus kip stuffing until worth the $. we had so lil empty plates tat the waiter said "did u all order the buffet? y eat so little? u see the other table dey gt so mani plates." lol den bro buay song gv fake laff n nv say anyting. i jus smilesmile. actually the person is hao xin tell us one la haha. at 5 we went to Giant to get his fbts~

we spent 60bucks at Giant! lol. acutally i wanted 2 buy one fbt shorts too but we scared we dunhav enuff $$ to pay so yea. and we got lots of pies, chicken pie blackpepper pie chicken mushroom pie chocolate pie custard pie. and cheesecake! had a piece ytd, i tink the taste too strong. found wallet in pretty colour for papa :) as present for father's day.

Friday, caught Toy Story 3 at ehub wif dear~ (Y) nice movie. the ken n barbie part v funny hahaa. 8.5/10. the nt 3D one sold out alr, so bought the 3D one instead at a later timing. played arcade before the movie n it was fun! but it's lik $6 gone in a blink of the eyes ha. lost to dear in everyting lik duh except for the wheel of fortune:D dose games we played tgt nv vs one, we were quite noob. heh. wheel of fortune is lik dunnid use effort jus press one button we even can get mre tix den playing sm other real game lol. exchanged tix earned for sm sweets=) it was almost midnight when the movie ended gah. managed 2 catch the last bus and homed.

2010-06-12T23:56:00.003+08:00

"Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains,
And I'll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins,
cause your heart has a lack of colour."

-Rainbow Veins by Owl City

2010-06-10T00:32:00.001+08:00

pretty pleasant day 2day :)
last day of tests, went out wif dear & visited mummy aft tat.

gt wire wrap for my laptop adaptor!

gummies & marshmallows, 3 quarters gone..

spent 1hr plus on dis ting can you believe it! hahaa we were trying 2 make a pink heart shape in the white part of the roof but the colours kip running off too liquid. gt alot of kids come seesee lols while we doing. dey r so cuteeeee. dey crowd ard n discuss sia but duno wat dey saying cos dey v shy whisperwhisper. lol. den i said helo dey onli smile. lollol. when we were left wif the last space to fill the colour, dear dun dare ask dem shld put wich colour! he's scared 2 tok 2 kids! LOL. anw, deciding the colours was hard sia. so long nv do colouring alr.

okayy my sis says dis is damn ugly. lol. but nevermind! it's special :)))

saw dis v cool toy at toysrus, maybi will buy cos sis tinks it's cool oso hahah.
i miss mummy's cooking ):

2010-06-05T14:38:00.006+08:00

i was in a state of shock ytd cos i realized i lost the 3RD CARD dis wk. lik omg, 3 cards gone in a wk on diff occasions and i din notice the cards drop at all. maybi i lost dem last wk or sth, i dun even noe when. dis goes to show wat a tiring wk it has been. sigh.

tried making dark & white fudge cupcakes ytd, and it tastes realli horrible. lol.

say something and make a stand about someone, and then the actions go against it. say one thing like you mean it, and then do the exact opposite. i hate people lik tat.

2010-06-03T20:10:00.003+08:00

had seafood aglio olio at eighteen chefs wif mummy for lunch ^^
the service super lousy the staff jus treat the place lik coffee shop or their own house or something, down there sing songs and tok so loudly. i dun rmb it was liddat the last tym i went thr, wich was 2 years ago btw.

i forsee a busy wk ahead!

2010-06-02T23:12:00.001+08:00

omg. i wanted 2 start on the sales scenario by 2nite. but i jus opened ms word n stoned. :/ onli did up the cover page so far.

2010-05-27T18:53:00.000+08:00

i had the nicest crispy fried sotong ever at machpherson rd one coffee shop near the bus stop where i take 8. is nice tothemaxxxxxxxxxx!

2010-05-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

I DECLARE THIS THE CHIO-EST CLASS TEE EVER:

hahaha damn cute right??!

i tink it's super creative oso.

2010-05-24T23:40:00.006+08:00

i dun nid anyting, i only nid love. :)

2010-05-24T18:50:00.001+08:00

true isnt it?

you inflict hurt on urself by blaming urself when thr's no one else left to hurt.

pretty nails i wan i wan :)

2010-05-24T12:45:00.002+08:00

The heart is pain.

i duno wat to do.

and the only person i trust to tell everyting to is you.

2010-05-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

nv find out wat happen den nv reply so i assume=angry/not happy. i shouldnt have expected you guys to care. from now on, im cutting off all expectations of care or concern from you guys.

2010-05-20T19:00:00.006+08:00

Damn cui from the field trip to navy open hse slept on sofa for 1 and a half hrs when i intended to sleep for half an hr onli. giddy.

The field trip is fail. everyting so disorganized and we were not well-informed of how tings work at all. was told tat thr will b shuttle buses to tanah merah mrt station/expo, and cos of tat, arranged to mitup wif smone and was expecting to b out of thr by 12.30. but nw the security guards say mus 40 ppl den can ask bus 2 come in? lik wtf i tink gt over 500ppl hw i noe hu wans 2 go thr man. and jus nobody tell us whr 2 take buses frm, wat tym the last bus leaves, and mus hav teacher in charge den can get out of tat place. if 4 of us wan to get out ourselves, mus the whole ite crowd disperse first den dey will call bus for us. teacher in charge oso nv gv contact, seriously, is dis hw a SCH field trip is lik?

whr gt ppl stay so near wan waste tym go bac to clementi one. i jus dun see y cannot find a way to go the mrt station/expo. it's nt lik it's difficult to do sth abt it. dey jus tink my business onli, so dun bother.

saw the tic when we walked out to the bus waiting area, and same for the bus 2 ngee ann, nid ard 40 ppl den can call the bus come. waited for mre ppl, as a result sm ppl ended up being late for their lsns at 1. i tink still gt sm ppl left behind. the bus come the tic jus boarded tgt wif us. zz. i wonder hw long the ppl hu were left behind had 2 wait to get on a bus.

shld hav gotten dwn n walked 5km out when the bus driver refused. instead sat dwn den regret. so aft awhile tried asking again lucky gt nice guy hu was chatting wif the bus driver help me put in some good words :) managed to get the bus driver to lemme alight at a ecp bus stop.
when no one stands up for you, fight alone.

2010-05-19T22:49:00.001+08:00

My heart is sad. :(